a NORMAL love

Once there a boy who made love more than it was. He made love change as much as the weather did. His love changed as he changed, as his mood changed, and as his heart changed. Love for this boy was something to obtain and once he finally obtained it, it slowly destroyed him. It was not the feeling of love that was ruined, rather it was the way he allowed himself to act under the possession of love that destroyed him. Love caused him tears, anger, depression, guilt, longing, and practically every sense a person can feel under the control of such a power. However, is love supposed to be a mixture of different ever-ranging emotions and senses that affect a person? Yes. This boy believed that love was not for the weak hearted, but for the strong willed, patient and endearing type. Once a person reaches love, that love sticks no matter what.

This boy once loved so much he never thought he could love again. He was convinced that this love was a love unlike any other. The boy went out of his way to make the love of his life feel like she was the core of this love. She often times did not feel this way and as a result this boy associated love with rejection and struggle. As the years went on their love grew immensely in one way and diminished largely in another way. Distance played a factor that placed love in a box of trust, which was to be kept closed. As distance became a factor, trust was an even bigger one. Luckily, this trust was never fully broken and this love continued- as trust is a hurdle all relationships face. Overtime, the boy’s life went one way; the girl’s life went the another way. Through the ups and downs, the lows and the highs, a final decision was made to separate from each other and never look back. The love that connected these two people had not broken, but these two had. As the two moved on without interacting in any way, the love that was so strongly built through trial and error over the years, turned into a quiet unspoken thing. It was there and part of it may always be, but life is large enough to break the physical aspects of love apart. And that’s what happened between these two young people..
 
I woke up this morning kissing goodbye the woman I fell in love with. My love for her is a sane, rational, and NORMAL love. Still, our love has its ups and downs and it has its twists and turns. The time since my other love stopped and my new love began has been a rollercoaster ride. What I did was learn from my past and learned to treat love with more patience and hard work than I did when I was just a boy. I love a woman who loves me and it is the type of healthy, long lasting, meaningful, NORMAL love I had been searching for all along. I do not minimize the first love I sought for over 6 years of preparation and work, nor do I classify it as unimportant. That love will always rest in my heart, no matter the size of its resting spot. The love I have now has found a new home in my heart and hopefully a lasting future. She has opened up her heart to me and that is all I could ask for. As someone once told me, ‘for love to be real, for love to have a chance, there must be two hearts’. And that is what I have 🙂