Show me love is real again

"I gotta take a little time. A little time to think things over. I better read between the lines in case i need it when i’m older..Now this mountain i must climb. Feels like a world upon my shoulders. I through the clouds i see love shine. It keeps me warm as life grows colder. In my life there’s been heartache and pain. I don’t know if i can face it again…"

     The biggest hurdle that stood in front of my love in the past, was myself. The very doubt that i casted upon me tampered with any possible hopes of love. I set goals for myself to continue into the future with one person. I was under the impression I would be able to move this way while dodging the other insecurities and self shame I had teetering on both sides of the love I held in the middle. This love was held in my center because it literally allowed me to cover the pain that came upon me. It enabled me the ability to be so grateful, yet so selfish, with a single person in order to better myself…

Maybe this is the reason it never worked with us…

     They say the worst thing you can do to end a relationship is not to have an official closure. This explains us always coming back together, but perhaps our final departure, though lacking an official finality, may be an exclusion to a rule we never followed..

Now, I make sure to stay tuned into my present and slowly, cautiously, and boldly move forward with a gift I thought I never had the chance of receiving again. After losing the ability to maintain a relationship with my former, I am starting to learn from the past, and try my best to avoid the mistakes I made before. I found someone wonderful now. If I can only get by my self doubt, we would be quite the match. I am grateful for the happiness she brings out in me and I only hope I can continue to provide her with the same feelings for me…

" I wanna feel what love is, i want to feel it too. And i know and i know, i know you can show me. Show me love is real, yeah. I wanna know what love is…"