You Can Look, But You Can’t Touch

     Seven months ago a solemn promise was made in the midst of an emotional goodbye in a Spanish airport fit perfectly for a movie. This goodbye shattered a part of me that has recently been put back together upon the success of this promise that occurred over these last few days. I was able to relive the best time of my life spent abroad in Spain- only this time, I relived that special memory with the girl that made it all worthwhile…

     This summer has been literally an eye opening experience for me. I’ve been opening up my eyes, seeing past what I used to only restrict myself to, and letting my vision perch on the path of moving forward. Though your time here was merely a "friendly" visit, it represented more to me than what I had anticipated. I am certainly not a guy that rests comfortably in the contemplation of his future, but it’s my future that was illuminated so brightly before me this past weekend. When you subtract the sexual aspect of a relationship you are left with only the person themselves- their character, their likes, their dislikes, what makes them who they are and what bothers you about them. Sex, I believe, is sometimes a way to shield our eyes from the flaws of that person temporarily, but it’s the extraction of this that paramounts the importance of what is real from what may lustfully and selfishly be right. What I saw, I liked, and in knowing that I feel more comfortable than I did when I left Spain.

     This weekend may have been the sequel to our first movie like experience together, but if it’s a trilogy meant to be then our next encounter will be even more special.

     Goodbyes are either hopeful or doubtful for me and the time that preceeds these departures from one another often diminishes the authenticity of what it once was. As I walked out of the train station after our second movie like goodbye, I looked up into the sky with tears in my eyes. It was another miracle- on this stormy day with a grimly filled sky of ominous clouds, my two eyes caught the only hint of radiant blue that formed a sliver in the dark blanket of doubtfulness. That sliver was the only real ray of hope that proved this was not our final goodbye…