(un)Faithfully

     Time passes in moments and upon every passing of these moments my degree of happiness varies, my daily queries increase, and my life as I know it takes one small step towards the next day. As I walk through life I pass what was once goals or dreams, unattainable at first only to be replaced by other ones, and all the while I search for consistency. My life lacks so much of it that I begin to appreciate the unchanging…

     I know what makes me happy just as I know what makes me sad. Is this a difficult realization to make? No. Only now, at nearly 22 years old, with all that I have seen, all that I have accomplished, and all that I have been through at such a young age, I truly can center in on and begin to plant the seeds for my future based off of the consistency I admire and acknowledge in someone else besides myself. I thought about this whole concept of consistency over the many years that I have come to know you, become friends with you, become inseparable, intimate, and connected so well with you. It’s even safe to say I loved you before I met you.

     One of my favorite movies is "Forces of Nature." Now, after watching it recently, I realize why it’s so special to me.   I can connect to it, I can see myself as the character Ben Afflect plays, and it illuminates the decisions I make in life dealing with accepting that which is attainable and meant for me while having to let go of those individuals that simply can’t work, despite the hardaches and pains in the process.  "Bridge, what I always thought was there was this one, one perfect person for everybody in the world, and when you found that person the rest of the world just kinda magically faded away and…the two of us would just be inside this kind of protective bubble. But there is no bubble, or if there is, we have to make it. I just think life is more than a series of moments; we can make choices and we can choose to protect the people we love and that’s what makes us who we are, and those are the real miracles!"

     I know about this bubble- WE know about this bubble. We made this bubble, though it may have popped along the way, the road to rebuilding it makes it that much better. I have gone outside of these protective walls that we once built, broke, and may be rebuilding now, and I have met people, one in particular that have changed me. Through change I have learned to accept a lot and make sacrifices to myself and to these type of people for reasons that simply justify their means. However, that’s life- accepting, moving on, and reliving what you lost.

     Whatever brought us together I know it was meant to be. Maybe there is this one perfect person in the world for all of us, and no matter how much I refused to believe this before, my emotions and feelings don’t lie. They represent years and years of moments we’ve shared and yes, it’s a miracle. And miracles don’t come often…

     I may know where my future is going and who I may share it with; however, I will never forget the girl who was able to change my life over such a small period of time. Sometimes the people we meet change us forever…