I have a problom

There is this problom that has been lingering in my thoughts for too long now. Kay I’m in love with this guy and he knows I love him but I find myself falling for another guy. Of course the other guy dosen’t know that I’m falling for him that is untill he reads this diary entry. Any way back on the subject. There are completly differnt things that I like about them like for instance one of them listens to me well. I told this one that I always wanted a candle light picnic somewhere in the moutains under the stars. Aww how pretty right….well anyway he took me to Yosimite and did just that he even had wine. Oh I was so happy that I actually had found someone that listend to what I had to say and what I wanted to do. He always respected me which I’d never had from any guy ever. He treated me better than any guy ever had.I didn’t realize it then but I loved him for it. I’ve known him better then the other guy of course I wouldn’t say longer.

Kay so the other guy it completly a different story. I’ve known him since grade school. I used to hate him. And am now falling for him. It’s a little werid for me to say concidering our past. But any way this guy can make me laugh so much he can make me laugh sometimes even when others can’t. Sometimes he can even make me smile when my very best friend Kat cannot. And she knows me more than anyone. There have been days where I just wanted to screem cause I was so upset or Angry and he’d either call or I’d get on line and he’d say something to me and I would just smile. So for this reason I am starting to fall for him.

I JUST DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO. IF ANYONE READING CAN HELP PLEASE DO SO.

Okay on other news I went camping over the weekend with my sister my cousin and some of our mutual friends. We went to the upper Kings River. For those of you that don’t live in Cali it is the biggest river here I belive. Any way it was so much fun. I got to get the heck out of the city for 3 days. The water wasn’t even really cold. I guess its because it was so hot up there.

Lets see what else. Oh I have a freaking sinus infection and it sucks cause I’m pregnent so I may have to just deal with it. I don’t know though I’m going to call the doctor in a little bit and find out if I can get some antibiotics. It’s funney when the medical assistants ask me how do you know you have a sinus infection I tell them cause I’m a medical assistant and it is part of my job to know. LOL Then I tell them my symptoms and there like okay.

Well I think thats about it for today.

If you are pregnant I’d say you have more important things to worry about than which guy to go out with. Grow up. You’re going to be a mother.

TotalTasha24/7

August 10, 2005

dont freak out let the peices fall were they will.. thats one thing ive learned… just let what ever happens happen… dont rush anything let this guy know how you feel … and everything else will work out on its own… always TASHA

If you think you’re falling in love with two guys at once, you’re probably actually not in love with either. When a person is truly in love, they only have feelings for that one person. Also, the only reasons you’ve mentioned as to why you love either of them are what they have done for you. What about what you would do for them? Maybe to find out who you like more, ask yourself who you would do

the most for.

just follow your heart ill allways love you no matter what just let god be your guide adios

Liyoness Rampant

August 12, 2005

Well, are you actually INVOLVED with the one guy?? Or are you single right now?? If you’re single- then you can have both until you make a decision. It’s not two timing, it’s not being close enough with either to know who you’re meant to be with. If you’re involved with the one guy then you HAVE to break it off and go for the other guy in order to find out who you’re meant to be with.

*Reads notes* You’re pregnant??? Oh god. *Rolls eyes* In that case, I agree with the first noter. Where is the father? Shouldn’t you be figuring out what’s going on with HIM FIRST? Oy. Whoever you get involved with from now on is going to be involved in your baby’s life. Your best bet is to stay away from guys until you get your life figured out.

i also agree with the first note your baby is more important than yrying to get with a guy you need to find your life first adios

you also need to figure on finding a guy who will love you and the baby and not just you be honest with your self more than anything will this guy stick by you and will he change diapers along side you its just not you anymore trying to find a guy your baby is looking to he will have to be a dad and a grownup im not trying to be mean it is just the truth be carefull i care about you and your baby

and i only whant the best for you and your baby i know sometimes i care to much lol caint help that oh well adios for now love daniel

ryn- I DIDN’T read any of your other entries. Honestly, you don’t sound interesting enough for me to go through your life story. But now that you’ve told me a little bit- you’re pretty irresponsible, and I stand by that first note, and by my own notes. You are pregnant now. You don’t just have yourself to think about, you have your child too. It’s time to stop whoring around and to think about

yours and your baby’s future. How many daddies do you want this child to know? How do you think that will affect your child? Stay away from dating until you can be SURE. It’s obvious you’re not the best judge of character, so you’d be better off keeping your legs closed for a while, and just finding a good network of friends.

August 13, 2005

ryn- I’m not the whore. I know who my baby’s daddy is. And I’m not confused as to who I should f*ck next. I have a doting boyfriend. The SAME boyfriend who helped conceive my child. Now, ordinarily I have nothing against girls who get pregnant by a guy and don’t end up with him, but someone in YOUR position should just keep her legs closed. If YOU are going to be a bitch and throw

another temper tantrum then don’t note me back. Just go on with your whorey little ways and stop posting in the circles.

Get a job. And stop calling me bitch or I’m going to report you to the Diary Master. In fact, because you used the word over 10 times in three notes I think I just might anyway. Don’t be surprised if your diary gets deleted. Be surprised if I find it in my heart NOT to get your diary deleted.