|| im looking forward to joining you, finally.

As black as the night can get
Everything is safer now
There’s always a way to forget
Once you learn to find a way how

In the blur of serenity
Where did everything get lost
The flowers of naivety
Buried in a layer of frost
The smell of sunshine
I remember sometimes

Thought he had it al before they called his bluff
Found out that his skin just wasn’t thick enough
Wanted to go back to how it was before
Thought he lost everything
Then he lost a whole lot more

A fool’s devotion
Swallowed up in empty space
The tears of regret
Frozen to the side of his face

The smell of sunshine
I remember sometimes

I’ve done all I can do
Could I please come with you
Sweet smell of sunshine
I remember sometimes…

— NIN

R.I.P. Clifford Karl Van Pelt

I will always love you grampa.