news that isnt the right time….e*

ok so i took a test when i was in town and i am……..NOT PREGNANT!! thank the fucking lord. i mean i want a baby but not right now…not a good time. but if i miss my period again this month…im going to go to the doctors and see whats up. anyways just wanted everyone to know.

so i really dont know what to say….or at least how to put this. Dan and i think im pregnant… i havent taken a test yet but i missed my period 12 days ago. im really hoping im not cuz its really not the greatest time to have a baby. especially since we are living with my grandparents right now and we both said we wouldnt do anything while living in this house. so if i am im screwed. im really hoping since ive been exercising hardcore the last couple weeks that thats the reason i havent had it. i know when i was playing soccer for those years i hardly had mine. but yeah…ive been thinking about it for many days now and im making myself sick…its weird cuz when i think about it…it seems like i get the symptom that you get when your pregnant. but when i dont think about it then im completely fine. UGH!!! this is driving me crazy.

whats really driving me crazy is what im going to do if i am pregnant. i dont know if i should tell my mom and keep going with the pregnancy or not. its going to be hell here if i do that. but i do want a baby…so idk. well if i am pregnant and i do keep it…Heather your going to be an aunt!

on another note….for me exercising hardcore the last couple weeks. ive lost 25 pounds. so im excited about that.