hard times ahead

Ive been planning to move to Wisconsin for a while now. I am suppose to transfer to University of Wisconsin Eau Claire for the fall. Planning to get an apartment with my boyfriend Dan.

Now my plans are on hold. My mother has been having pains in her side for a while and she finally went to the doctor and well they found "lumps" on her ribs and one on her spine. They dont know how far along they are. They are sending her to a cancer doctor to do test and to see how far along they are. Then they will decide what kind of treatment they want to go with.

I dont want to leave my mother alone on this. Granted my father will be there but I still want to be there for her. Shes my mother, she has always been there for me. She has raised me more than my father has. My father hasnt always been in my life because of the military. We dont know if she will be able to leave Virginia and get treatment somewhere else or if she will have to stay here. We also dont know how long the treatment will be.

If she has to stay here for treatment im going to stay here and keep going to Thomas Nelson. Then maybe in the Spring leave and go to Wisconsin. Who knows what is going to happen.

Im just really worried about my mother. I dont want anything to happen to her.  I dont know what to do. I cant remember when I was younger always praying that nothing would happen to my parents and then now something might happen to my mother and its really bothering me. It has really hit me, and im having a hard time with it. I know we will get through everything that comes up but still its really hard.

I just wish I had my boyfriend and my sis here with me. It would help if they were here. But i cant so I have to deal with this by myself.

Anyways I better go. Just wanted to update.