relationships…confusing but love them

hey guys! sorry its been a while since i wrote. my computer got really messed up and i had to get it fixed. so whats up? not a lot here. im having probs with scott. heather thinks i should just dump him and forget about him. cuz i kinda found someone else i like and he really LOVES me…his name is Izzy. hes really sweet. he wrote me like 5 different songs and he writes poems about me all the time. im starting to really fall for him…but i still really love scott!! and i dont wanna give up what me and scott have. i mean yeah its not a lot cuz we hardly talk and sometimes i dont hear from scott for months. heather thinks that he just uses me when he wants to. drops me for a while until he wants me again and then picks me back up again. and sometimes i believe it but sometimes i dont. i mean ive spent 2 yrs with him. well almost 2 yrs. i love him to death. but i cant take not talking to him anymore. i cant take him promising me something and then break the promise. he does that a lot lately. everytime i try to call he wont answer his cell. so i have no clue whats going on. ill email him and he’ll email me back but he wont answer my calls. he keeps saying he’ll call me but he doesnt. i think im gonna call him later tonight and see whats going on. i really want to know if i should stay in this relationship. i especially need to know that he still loves me and wants to try and keep this relationship going. cuz if he doesnt then i mean why stay with it…you know? but izzy is so sweet. we’ve talked everynight since Thursday  September 1. and i mean EVERY night….lol one night we talked for like 4 hours straight. hes really cool. and he loves me so much.

but anyways. not a lot else has happened. started school and stuff. well im listening to My Chemical Romance. so i decided i would put up one of their songs. HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND!!!

"All I Want For Christmas Is You"

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you

I don’t want a lot for Christmas there is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I don’t need to hang my stocking way above the fireplace
Santa Clause won’t make me happy with a toy on Christmas day
And I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, you baby

I wont ask for much this Christmas
I wont even wish oh I wont even wish. I wont even wish for snow.
I’m just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe
I wont make a list and send it to the North Pole for St Nick
Wont even stay awake to hear the magic reindeer play

Cause I just want you here tonight,
Holdin on to me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, oh baby
Oh our lives are shinin surrounding everywhere
Where the sounds of children’s laughter fills the air
And everyone is singin’ oh I hear those sleigh bells ringin’
Santa wont you bring me the one I really need
Wont you bring back my baby to me

Oh I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m askin for
I just want to see my baby standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you, you, its you, you, oh baby
All I want is you
You, you, you, you, you