one wish

if i could have one wish right now come true it would be for my mom. i hate the fact she’s living with an abusive drunk and thinks its fine to "be getting used to" his crap. the other day i was on the phone with her and he was drunk and yelling at someone on the tv and she said something to the point of asking if he could lower it and he mostly replied with a "why dont you mind your own fucking business and just listen to your fucking daughter instead of fucking your business in my shit" and it took me a while to return to our convo cuz it was taking everything in me to not drive up and show him where he could shove his shit. my mom doesn’t deserve this. my mom has one of the most loving and open hearted personalities I know. she has also been through so much with my dad already and i want so much better for her. i want her out of that apartment! she told me she was coming around early on our deal and he would be out by the end of the lease and if hes not i’m still keeping with my bargain that he better be out by my 21st birthday (august 2). i just want the best for her.

as for today…nothing much really. ethan and i went shoe shopping for him and than i went to classes. i ended up finally drawing megan’s fiance’s tat design he asked for months ago and than my second class’ instructor let us out an hour early (classes are 2 hours long each). after that i actually went to the wednesday church service i used to go to every wednesday but havent gone in months. it was nice. they ended up doing this thing where each person sits down and people say positive and sweet things about that person to show how loved and appreciated each person is. according to the people there i am funny, forgiving, creative, great actress, one of a kind friend (due to me scrubbing gum off angie’s butt over a year ago), amazing at leaving funny voicemails, and someone who makes everything brighter and the life of the party. it was pretty cool to see how some people really thought of me. 😀 well work in the morning tomorrow and school at night. better get off to bed.