#totw36 I only envy that which I can never have

This is a good theme…I used to wonder why I envied some people. How they looked or what they owned  was not a problem. My issue has always been envy that person I could never have. It reflected in my life at an early age. My first boyfriend was one who I had but never could have. He slipped away and I at the age of 14 was crushed. I then grew into a teenager who was very picky of guys. I had a few who ran after me but I left them all and grew into a woman who never could have the one she really wanted. I could buy thing, do things like get a Bachelors degree without a problem.

All my life after this has been an eternal needing for the ONE….I met a few of them who never turned out to be him. Then I met a guy who was married who was the best man I have ever met BUT nope not him ether. So I am still hoping the one will come I have faith in the Universe and in love.