01/12/2010
i want to be happy. i feel like i deserve a modicum of happiness in my life. i’m just not sure how to obtain that. i want to move on to the next part of my life… i want to succeed in my career, i want to find a special someone to share my life and maybe have a family with. i want to get past all this pain and hurt.
something is holding me back, and until i can figure out what the hang up is… i’m not sure where i need to go from here.
in other news i was offered a 2nd year with the program here at Pittsburgh Opera. so… that’s good. i’ve been talking with the artistic administrator and the general director and we’ve all agreed that i should audition for Lyric Opera of Chicago one more time (which would start in 2011). and as for this summer, it looks like i’m going to do a round of competitions. its really the only way i know to get money without doing a program. plus it’ll look good on my resume. i think i’m finally getting my voice together enough that i could probably win everywhere i go. which would be nice.
one of the competitions i’m entering has a 1st Prize of $50,000. yes… fifty thousand dollars. that would be very nice… but i’m also not getting my hopes up.
that’s all i have for today. hope you are all doing well.
– noah
p.s. they called lindsay with the results, everything came back clear. that’s good. my GP was thinking because it hasn’t happened since the first day that it was probably a hemorrage vessel or something. she said if it happens again to immediately go get it checked out.
You know what my hangup is? Your font color is too light. It should be black. Or something darker.*pokes you*
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I’m so glad everything came back ok from the doctor. That’s a very, very good thing! *hugs* And again, congratulations on getting the second year there. 🙂
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I’m glad that the health issues weren’t serious! You will be happy. It will happen. You are a kind and thoughtful man and definitely full of ambition. A woman is going to come along and see you for who you are and jump at the chance to share in your life. $50,000 – that is amazing! Maybe I should start warming up these rusty pipes of mine and sing as I study 😉
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i’m glad everything is ok! and your friend has a really cool name… 😉 haha. congrats on the 2nd year! that’s awesome. i never really asked you… do you like pittsburgh so far?
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ryn: yeah… i understand. just make them move here! 😉
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whoop that ass and get that paper damnit!!!!!!
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Congrats on being offered a 2nd year! That is fantastic news, and I feel pretty confident that you’ll win the competiton with the $50,000 prize, you have a fantastic voice that everytime I hear it gives me goose pimples lol. Glad to hear good news from the Doc as well. I hope you don’t have another episode of that! *hugs*
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Hi there! Your first paragraph matches SO many of my diary entries. I hope you find what you are looking for. Congrats on being offered the 2nd year! What medicine do you take for your ADD? I went to the doctor today and he is going to start me on Aderol just to see if it helps and go from there. Also he wants me to get tested.
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glad all is well. As for your hangup, let go of what ever hurt you in the past, then you will be able to see clearly when choosing your future. You will be able to make a positive progressive movement toward a perfect love and you will be able to recognize it when you are placed in front of it. Take care and congrats on the offer!
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great that you have been offered the second year! All of the opera singers I know here have had to go overseas to get work, Australia has nothing. I sincerely hope that you feel a bit more settled soon.
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$50k? Holymotherofpearl! It’s good that you have a plan. Plans are comforting things. (And if you had everything figured out for the rest of your life right now, I’d be amazed. Pleased for you, too, but amazed.)
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Sing!! Sing your heart out and win that prize!!!
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Hey… look at this entry dear… all that doesn’t sound bad: You’re well… stupid burst vessel, you do cool competitions, you’ve been offered another year… it’s all great dear. But you are right about having to figure out what’s “holding you back” before you can “move forward” and knowing that is the first step so… glass half full!!!! 🙂
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ryn: I’m fine, I’ve just been super busy lately being home and whatnot, plus my laptop died while I was here. 🙁 I haven’t even been on OD in forty forevers. I’ve only got about a week left though, so things will calm down soon. Thanks for your concern though 🙂 Hope things are going well for you. We’ll catch up soon.
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RYN: She said it was because all the fetal pigs were at different gestational points, so not everything was fully developed. Pretty freaking neat, if you ask me, but also very gross.
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everyone deserves happiness. For some it just comes easier than others, unfortunately.
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