12/29/06 *EDIT*

well, i really have nothing to type about…

yeah, thats a lie.  this is going to sound so stupid…  who am i kidding.  it is so stupid.  i’m stupid.

so i haven’t been in my room all day, but my computer is online, like it always is.  so i come in here and see that i have a message on Yahoo!  at first, i didn’t recognize the name, but then suddenly it hit me!  it was my ex’s best friend (or one of them).  she was getting ahold of me to just say hi.  the only thing i could think about the entire time we were talking was "is she going to talk/ask about maija?"  she didn’t… and i’m kinda glad she didn’t.

its weird.  we broke up over 5 years ago, and most of the time i don’t think of her… ever.  but every once in awhile, something will happen, and i won’t be able to get her out of my head for a week.  not a few hours, or a day or two… but a week or more.

i feel as strongly about her now and i did then, and i feel very badly that it turned out the way it did.  looking back, i would have preferred to stay friends.  she was the best friend i ever had. 

don’t get me wrong.  my best friends now are great!  but, i’ve never been able to be so true with someone other than her.  it could be because we were dating.  *shrugs*

anyway… i don’t know why i’m writing about this.  its probably not a good idea that i am, but i needed to talk about her without people rolling their eyes at me, or telling me how bad she was for me (something i still don’t agree with).  i wanted to talk about it without feeling guilty.

so… there you have it.  i am going to torture myself for the next few days for no reason…  all because her friend got online and talked to me.

her friend, incidently, is engaged and doing very well at her work.  that was good to hear.

blah.

*EDIT*

i just looked at the headlines and i realize there is alot more thats bringing me down.  and i’m sorry if any of you disagree with what i’m about to talk about, but its my diary, so sod off…

Saddam Hussein is about to be executed.  probably within the next 24 hours.  now, i’m not a huge proponent of the death penalty to start with… but i have this very scary feeling that killing him now will be like opening the doors of Hell… and i don’t particularly believe in that either.

it just seems that this is not the right course of action.  i’m almost positive that many people will disagree with me on this.  however, there is also a good reason why most of the world has rid themselves of capitol punishment.  let me know what you think…