April 28, 2006

just a quick entry

so, i’ve alread sent this so you can’t talk me down from it… i just wanted to mention what i did and i’d like to get your opinions on the matter.

for the last couple weeks i’ve been depressed and thinking about Maija alot (the ex i had several years ago that, to be honest, i have never recovered from. and to be deathly honest i wasn’t a peach at the end of the relationship either and that had been bothering me.

so, earlier today i drafted an email, very short and simple. all it said was this (not exacted, didn’t copy it before sending).

i don’t know how to begin this, so here goes.

it occurs to me that i never apologized for my behavior. i’m sorry. no amount of excuses or explanations would make up for my errant display of stupidity. you can take it or leave it.

i have another reason for emailing, i heard you and justin are getting married so i wanted to congratulate you. hope all is well with you and yours.

best regards
-noah

since i sent it i feel loads better already. i dont’ know why. seems odd to me that so many years afterward i will still carry this baggage around that just torments me. *shrugs* oh well. tell me any thoughts you have on the matter (and i want you to be honest).

anyway, i’m gonna go read for a bit, or maybe practice. take care all!

– noah

RedWolfGoddess

April 29, 2006

I hope that after you e-mailing her you feel better. Sometimes it helps to write out what you carry in your heart. Take care beloved @}~*~~~

carmentheblue

i understand the feeling of baggage. its tough when you’ve hurt someone you loved & never really appologized or explained.

sophy

April 30, 2006

yeah your right, drunkeness in generally not a good thing. definatly too much drama. i think the email you sent was a really good idea, things like that always make me feel better. and now you know that you’ve done what you kind to kind of apologise. i know if i was her i’d be really glad to get an email like that from someone. xxx

Nut*Meg

*hugs*

Butterfly Collector

In my opinion (since it was indirectly asked for in the following entry)… Apologising to people is always a good thing. If it’s way too late, then it’s still better than not at all, if it was genuine. Which this apparently was. So it’s mostly good. [cont]

[cont] Of course, if you do apologise like this, you have to accept responsibility if the person responds badly and you end up feeling absolute rubbish. But it’s the right thing to do. Which is something to be proud of, in a quiet little way.