Wake me up when September comes…

… but until then, let me hold you in my arms.

i find if very hard to concentrate on my music sometimes.  not that i have trouble when i’m practicing, my practicing has become quite good.  i mean, i have a hard time making myself practice.  mostly because i have other things i want to think about, i.e. girls (women… sorry), relationships etc. etc.

and to be perfectly honest, those things right now in my life could be very devestating in the big picture.  my friend aaron and i talk alot about how we both need someone in our lives because without them, we feel very empty.  however, he refuses to find someone right now.  he refuses to even look because there is a possibility he will be moving to virginia.  therefore he does not want to create a situation where he will caring for someone, but not able to be with them (long distance).

but here i am, very much looking (and for the most part failing… but thats okay) when i probably won’t even be in one place for more than few months in the coming years.  the problem is, i don’t particularly care.  i enjoy what i do, but i don’t particularly like it.  i got into singing only because i was doing for other people.

nothing thrills me more than being able to sing for someone. 

anyway… doesn’t really matter.  i have to do this if i want to do anything in my life.  it just means i’ll probably do it alone.  oh well.

anyway, on another note, i mentioned earlier that i’m getting an appartment in seattle.  i think i’ll be moving in the week after next.  i need to sign the papers next thursday and hopefully i’ll get to move in the weekend after that.

in the mean time i’ll probably be here still at my grandma’s in bremerton takin care of her.  i’ve been writing a lot lately, but i’m not sure i want to post any of it.  its kind of dark…  i’m kind of tired of my diary only being dark, brooding & and depressed thoughts.  i already know how pathetic i am, do i need to prove it on here? 😉 lol

anyway, take care all.

– noah

p.s. i’ve done this in the past, and i figured i’d do it again in case anyone is interested.  my various messenger names:

AIM: TomBombadil19
MSN: tom_bombadil19@hotmail.com
Yahoo: tom_bombadil19@yahoo.com