rocking to my own beat

alright, i ahve definatly been pulling a disappearing act.
since i last wrote so many things have happened. bradford and i are on and off. i’m not really worried about it….i know he’s not boyfriend material, and i just needed to figure that out, i guess.
in the past few weeks i have done a ton. i did i little old sarah relapse and used a particular drug. it was definatly my last time using, but i figured i deserved a little kick off to my clean life, right?
so lindsay and i had a fantastic time, rolling off our asses at the fair, Baptist academy, main street and tallgrass. i got a little paranoid a few times. had some trouble breathing, you could have sworn i was coaching a la ma’s class. 🙂
but over all it was a good experience with good people. and i am positive i will never use drugs again.
alexia and mallorys new friends have reached new levels of awfulness. i’ve been making it a point to spend more time with lindsay, john, erika and derrick. to make up for the fact the i’m majorly excluded from my old friends. at first it really hurt, but now i realize that they are not the kind of people i want in my life.  we will see how things progress, and hopefully it will change during the school year. and if not, then i really don’t care. i will be to busy with life.

trying desperatly to find a job, i’m down to my last $50 and my parents still don’t know about my unemployment……eeek. it really sucks. but i will figure SOMETHING out. i am applying at mountain town, italian oven, bennigans and maple river tomorrow. and maybe a few fast food joints. i know that i would hate working at a place like that. but money is money, right?

right now i am fighting with the stupidest fly ever. actually i take it back, it is pretty fdamn smart, since i haven’t killed it yet.
my fake id is supposed to arrive tomorrow. i’m really hoping i wasn’t scammed, knock on wood!!
i purchased some awesome prints for my room. right now i have van gogh’s sunflowers, renoir’s moulin de la galette and monet’s bassin d’argentuil. my room looks nice. i really feel like i LIVE here now.

and as sson as school starts i will be the happiest lady alive! one week! welcome weekend is four days away, which is definatly soon enough! school on the 28th, and allie’s 21st on the 29th. then a semester of blah. i might pick up an extra class too.

goodnight