mount pleasant

it’s wierd. alexia has been my best friend for most of being a teenager. and we don’t fight. i’m used to always having everything be just fine.

she said to me this morning, that she can’t understand why jen doesn’t say something to mika.

i think that jen and mika just don’t get it.

mika and i talk a lot. but she never listens to what i say. she will ask me my opinion on a topic 4 or 5 times. my thoughts don’t just change on a whim. when i am asked the same damn question for the fifth time it makes me realize that she didn’t listen to the first four responses.

this whole extra room disaster. i have told mika more times that i can count how i feel. she cannot spend so much time talking crap about these girls and then because one random night when she’s wasted she likes them; and expect me to say.

“Oh sure, I know you hated her yesterday…but tonight your wasted…and I bet she’d make a great roomate.”

it just doesn’t work like that.

mika, the simple fact of all this drama…is that i feel you do not listen to a single word i say. that you are either to wasted to comprehend what i am saying, or you are to busy thinking about your own life.

and i’m god damned worried about you. every time you mention your ulcer or lupus i want to smack you. if you are really that ill, why would you drink so much? do you realize how much that hurts the people who care about you? we don’t want you to die! and i’m not saying live a boring as hell sheltered life, but come on! limit yourself.

i know that i’m going to be the “bitch” for initiating all of this. but i don’t care. i can’t have a friend that doesn’t listen.

until both of you get what i am talking about, i quit. i’m seriously thinking about writing Gayle and dropping out of the lease. i feel like it’s two against one…and that not fair.

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