i’ve got a secret

last night was amazing. the first part was terrible, but my time with james…wow.

i went over to jake, kimmy, and carly’s for jen’s birthday. and it was just me, lex, jake, kimmy, jen and jen’s boyfriend. so after a few hours of nothing lex, jen and her boyfriend left, carly came home, and we went to rubbles. rubbles was lame, a bunch of nasty shepherd boys grabbing my ass and trying to hook up with me. i looked each one squarly in the eyes and said, “i’m seeing someone.” and trotted away in my short skirt and “fuck me i’m a business woman” top. we went to some creepy apt. where a bunch of people were coked up and rolling. so i said fuck this.

no actually james called me. so i said kimmy i want to see james now.

and she took me. but i was not nearly as demanding.

james looked really attractive last night.

he was eating ramen so his breath was terrible. but he brushed his teeth.

china garden employees have caused some drama for james. so he got really angry. it was so crazy to watch him build up anger and his adrenaline. we just had an intense night. and it was just great sleeping in his arms. i think that is my favorite part about him. i always wake up so sweaty just because he is so warm.

i convinced him to drive me home. when he really didn;t want to. i was going to buy him lunch because he was painting all day, but he ended up not wanting it when lunch time rolled around.

i’m having a girls night. we are making margarita’s and having lots of fun. i haven’t ever really done an all girls night before. so i’m very excited. and i am not going to talk to james for the rest of the night. to prove that i can do it.

because i really like him too much.

i leave in twenty days.

less than three weeks