if this is communication, i disconnect

i might have already said this, but i wrote mike an email last night. this morning i saw that it didn’t send. apparently i can’t copy and paste an email address very well. but it has been sent to the correct address now, and he is online, so who knows what is happening with that.

i got an email this morning, from kevin. the subject line was “a short hello”. i was very confused by this untill i opened it and realized it was a different kevin. last night i asked him to explain the significant moment he previously made refrence to. i knopw i was overanalyzing…but i was just shocked he brought it up. i wanted an explanation. he said he just brought it up because he wanted to make conversation, it was something we had in common. i never new that his penis in my face was common ground. lol.

okay, that was obscene.

this is the original conversation about significant moments….confusing.

my head is light: aol, first listen

my head is light: “wow, that really interupted things”

I never knew, if i was sometimes played upon: what?

my head is light: oh come on

my head is light: it was our strongest moment together

I never knew, if i was sometimes played upon: strongest moment? i don’t ever remeber a strongest moment

my head is light: ok,whatever

I never knew, if i was sometimes played upon: no, explain, if you remember it is probably something significant

I never knew, if i was sometimes played upon: will you please explain what you mean

my head is light: i can’t

I never knew, if i was sometimes played upon: you can’t?

my head is light: thought it was something we shared, but if you dont remember than it is insignificant

I never knew, if i was sometimes played upon: i didn’t realize that making out a few times was significant

confusing huh? but i know exactly what he was talking about. i can’t believe he would remember something like that. well i am mostly talking about the wow the iteruppted things. it was over a year ago and he still remmbers that the phone rang.

this is what happened last night

ma’am: i was thinking about you today

ma’am: because i am quite confused about something you said

wake up and see the world for what it truely is, a place to spread love and shine heaven through all faces: share it wil you

wake up and see the world for what it truely is, a place to spread love and shine heaven through all faces: i am usually pretty confusing

ma’am: you made a refrence to a significant moment we shared. i am confused as to whcih moment you are talking about, but i’m oretty sure i know, why it is significant. and when did it become significant. when it happened? recently. i guess i would just like an explanation

ma’am: but you don’t have to give one

wake up and see the world for what it truely is, a place to spread love and shine heaven through all faces: i guess i dont know what you are asking me to explain

ma’am: maybe i don’t either

ma’am: last year was a hard time for me. everyone who knew me then knows that. i felt very abandoned. if it was a significant moment, and you took the time to remember a random phrase….i’m just really confused as to what you meant when you brought it up last week

wake up and see the world for what it truely is, a place to spread love and shine heaven through all faces: i was simply trying to find common ground between us

ma’am: i am such an overanalyzer

wake up and see the world for what it truely is, a place to spread love and shine heaven through all faces: remoniss <<– spell… on something

wake up and see the world for what it truely is, a place to spread love and shine heaven through all faces: yes, this is true, it is a gift though

okay i am done…you tell me waht you thinkm. because i am still lost. what made him decide i was finally worth his time? uhg.