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Today the clouds reflect my mood. Dark, thick, heavy, ominous even. Rain is sprinkling, you can feel the tension building. The cold fingers of the wind are ruffling the hair at the back of my neck making me shudder just for a moment.
I am for the moment lost, dazed, confounded. There are mundane things pulling me down into the silent darkness below. Things that I am trying so hard to change with no success. My age I know is part of the problem, the other is the lack of employment for ever so long. I have to succeed, there is no other option. People are depending on me, people that I love deeply. People I wish were closer to me.
Time to keep trying, put on my big girl panties, find my way through. Even though I’m in a high state of anxiety, I just have to say that tomorrow will be better. The wind and rain will blow and wash me clean.
Under the right conditions, determination can become a habit. Not finding work is scary. May it come crashing in, in abundance.
@e3 how do I friend you?
@darkzymphony – now you got it. Nice to meet you. Food makes my world go round. Hang around a little. I drop ideas here and there 🙂
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I am constantly in a high state of anxiety, and when I am not I worry when I will be. We just have to make it through the day to get to tomorrow, things will work out how they are meant to be and those changes will come. Be kind to yourself and give yourself time. 🙂
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