Ok I am SO TIRED Of THIS….

Ok I am so tired of this FAT!!! Starting in the morning I am losing 40 lbs. My Mom went and bought me some clothes for my birthday and I got the size of ALL the rest of my clothes I wear on a daily basis. Needless to say I have to take them ALL back tomorrow and get 1 size bigger. I wore 1/2 the size of clothes I take now when I met Kerry. Have I become to content, complacent? What the heck is the deal?? Yes I wanted to use stronger language but didn’t. I am upset totally!! My Mom said," well you have to remember when we built your apartment you were anorexic and the Dr. was VERY concerned." Big deal get ready to get concerned again….ughhhhhhh I feel like crying. I will post every 6 weeks when I go to the Dr.’s what I have lost if anything……sighhh I still can not have any scales in my house because of the past deal. Well, I am going to buy a bike (see if my legs make it) or do something. If I have to go back and have another bypass to get my legs working again I will have to do that because I can NOT stand this FAT!!! I am soooooooooo FAT and UGLY. How can Kerry even love me??? Maybe he doesn’t even though he says he does….
Anyways see ya all and I will post when I can and read my faves I am here just bummmmmmed MAJORLY!!!