I Had/ All/ And Then Most Of You/Some/ And Now None of You

Spouse is telling me that, if we did it over again and were just meeting eleven years ago, he wouldn’t start our relationship again because
.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        ;I feel like I was lying to you: thinking and presenting myself as allosexual. Like I’m not what I said and thought I was and you deserve honesty.;

And I smiled _{<because the things I can smile through now are nearly endless>}
.                                                                                                                  ;No more than I lied to you by thinking I was cis then.;

‘Oh take me back
Take me back
To the night we met’
– Lord Huron