Therapeutic Things.
- Going to see my therapist twice a week now instead of once a week. Mondays and thursdays.
- Going to Eating Disorders Anonymous once a week on fridays
- Going to Alateen on Tuesdays with my brother.
- My therapist says I should live in a dorm and go to the U of M. I said Dan would get sad/mad if I moved. He said I don’t always have to do what dan wants. I said i’m afraid of being alone. He said thats part of growing up. I still don’t know. I can’t be alone. Just wish I could maybe live with a friend in my own apartment but don’t have enough money.
- Therapist says I should get into group therapy at the emily program cause they have a group for people who have been sexually abused?? I don’t know but i’ll call them tomorrow maybe.
- Therapist says before I do or don’t do anything always think about myself as I was when I was little child. I never really had a chance to have a real childhood because of my moms drinking so now to get over these fears I have of growing up and all these bad things I use to cope with my emotions I have to nuture and care for myself as if I were my own mother. Carry a picture around of me when I was younger and everytime I think, "oh I shouldn’t eat, I don’t deserve to, I need to make others happy" or everytime I have sex just cause I can’t say no just think about "my child" (which is myself) and would a mother really say that and put her child through that? I think of "my child" a lot now and I always ask in my head what she really wants out of life, I always try to think what is best for her. It really helps ALOT.
that picture idea is really good. its in the book im letting dan read. oh, is he still reading it? you should read it too. if you think it might help a little.
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you dont need him, i know your strong. not saying dont be with him just saying that if things stay like they are of you have no real connection with him you should end it cuz thats not giving you what you need. idk your strong girly
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