Just thoughts

 I’m writing an entry on polyamory but it is taking a while because there is a lot to write. Anyways I am starting to think that maybe there is no point except to make people understand better because I’m not really sure I should really be with sabrina like that until she is over bethann. I just want to do what is best for her and I don’t know what is best for her. I feel bad for starting this thing with her without her really knowing like what the deal was with the polyamory thing. She was prob confused and it was kind of selfish of me but it just sort of happened because we were doing sexual things before and after i was dating dan and it just sort of gradually switched into what it is now and now I just wish I could take it back to spare her of all this confusion. I just want her to be happy that is why I do everything I do with her but i’m starting to think I can never take all the pain away and it was foolish for me to ever think that.

My tattoo itches like fuck now. I think I am like allergic to everything because it itches more when I put lotion and creams on it than when it has nothing on it but it just gets so dry! I am pissed cause I try to get natural and fragrance free lotion or the a&d lotion but it all just irritates it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!