dreams.

I had some of the weirdest dreams last night and I can’t really remember that many. First of all there was one where I was sleeping on the beach but I had to be way off, I was sleeping by myself in this scary shack. I didn’t want to sleep by myself so I went to this tent where some other people where sleeping. They said there is more like carbon monoxide down near their end of the beach so if that bothers me I should just sleep in the shack instead. So I knew that carbon monoxide bothered me so I tried to sleep in the shack but it was dark, wet, and lonely. It was unbearable so I went back down to the tent and I told them back if I sleep near the water then the carbon monoxide wouldn’t bother me as much (don’t ask me why I guess the water was a really refreshing, purifying smell). I could tell everyone in the tent was angry with me for disturbing them so many times, so I just slept alone near the edge where there was either an opening to the water or a window. I could hear it crashing. I just felt comfortable because there were people there, even if they didn’t like me because I kept moving around. I was scared and I didn’t think anyone cared about me. Then when I awoke I think it was still dark. Or mostly everyone was sleeping. I was away from everyone but I had a strip of glittery fabric around my waist and something else, I’m going to call it an amulet. This made me feel loved and somehow I knew it was from him. I went up to him and looked at him in the eye, that is when I knew it for sure. I felt the connection between him and me. I kissed him softly and sweetly on his stomach all over, all the way down and up. There was no sex but it was so sensual it was amazing. I wish I could remember more but that is all I really remember. I think after that we kissed on the lips and he held me in his arms. I thought he had hated me but I guess he was looking after me that whole night.  Someone the amulet I received that night was from the ocean itself, saying that we were someone a sacred couple. That we were meant to be. I don’t know how or why I knew this, but I kept the amulet close to me heart after that. We didn’t tell anyone about our love in the morning or after that, but he always held me at night after everyone went to sleep. This was the best dream I have had in forever. I loved kissing his stomach so much, I went out on a whim there but it turned out to be good.

Anyways the dream after that turned out that me and kari were walking around in the cold and dark, in the city looking for the right bus to take to my friend kaylas house. I didn’t know where to go and somehow we ended up near a school where everyone saw my amulet and asked me how I had gotten it. I forget what I said. Anyways we ended up not going to kaylas house because we couldnt find our way but we did get me a lot of pills from some chinese shop along the way. I needed them, they had all sorts of symbols on them and this guy that reminded me of Gale told me what each one meant. A lot of them where like xanax or whatever. Thats all I can remember right now.

Anyways I woke up with my whole body numb to the touch/scratch and bleeding like a mo-fo. It was weird because my blood made the shape of a heart when I got up though. And not like you can kind of see it, a totally semetrical heart.