death becomes you..

eyes closed and chest tightened.
no longer breathing air, but thoughts instead
20 years in just one second
my whole life, playing in my head

each mistake,
every day.
my frist kiss,my last
things I said or didnt say.

still breathing thoughts
cant open my eyes
it cant be over
it cant be my time

20 years in just one second
though it feels like an eternity
i’m still falling, still not breathing
my life still flashing in front of me

This cant be it, I’m meant for more
this distance has never felt longer
i’m still falling, still not breathing
when will the falling be over?

solid ground and eyes wide open
trying to breathe, but i cant.
no air can enter, and none can escape
I lay there helpless and afraid.

20 years in just one second.
falling an eternity without a breath.
i lay there searching, my entire life,
knowing i’m not ready for death.

then air enters,
and painfully escapes
i lay there helpless,
but with a smile on my face.

20 years in just one second
I’m staring at the sky
i breathe in heavily, smiling…
I knew I was too young to die.