Today…I’m tired of life

Moments like these….I wanna walk away from it. I’m never going to be good enough…n I get sick of hearing all of the negative n hurtful things he says. I make excuses to myself when shit is good to pretend that it’s going to be good from here on out….then his alter-ego re-appears n that sickening feeling is stuck n my gut like a huge ball of negative. 

He wants me to be perfect for *Him* n then let’s me know I’m just not the woman he needs all the while…he gets amnesia on every wrong he commits. 

If I had a place to go….today would be the day I walk out.  _{I stuff every bit of hurt n every bit of anger down n I go about my day not feeling good enough n then another personality surfaces…n then he’s loving n caring. It sucks everything out of me to constantly try n walk on egg shells…trying to please n meet all of his needs while mine takes a back seat.} 

_{Just another thing I got to deal with.} 

_{He is selfish}

_{I am selfless}

_{How can I keep lying to myself?}

_{Today…I am NOT ok!}