I have no idea what i am doing!

Seriously I have absolutely no idea what i am doing with my life.  I’m messing things up big time I think.  Actually it’s more like I’m not doing anything at all which is what is messing up my life.  I have no motivation to do anything.  I just want to be left alone.  Tulven asked me what my dreams/goals/plans for my life where and I told him that I couldn’t answer him because I honestly had no idea anymore.  I don’t know what I want,  but I do know that I don’t want this…this life that I have.  I want something more.  I just don’t know what it is or how I’m going to get it.

And today…I am missing him very much.