Emotional Frustrations

Today was a very frustrating day for me at work.  I feel like I always have so much to do and not enough time to accomplish everything.  Today I had truck to finish putting away, ad tags to put up, a new hire to train, problems in the photo lab, the new readerboard ads to set-up for tomorrow, and just a bunch of other annoying little problems to deal with.  But what really got to me today was that I had to put away all the totes for the baby aisle.  I seriously had an emotional breakdown while stocking the baby products.  Basically all stemming from me wanting to have babies and not having the opportunity to in the near-ish future.  I’m almost 27 and nowhere near a relationship with someone who is ready to have children.  And I am dammit.  I’m pretty sure that Michael does not want to have children with me.  I don’t think he wants to have them at all, which makes me question our whole relationship.  And everyone around me is having babies…my best friend, 4 of my friends I went to school with and 3 of my cousins who are near my age.  I come from a large family and I want to have a large family myself and I just feel like it is never going to happen.  Seriously it just makes me want to cry.  I’m afraid that I’m wasting my time with someone who doesn’t want to have children, when I could be with someone who does.  Grrrrrr…stupid biological clock!!!