Worst week and birthday ever!

So this week has turned out to be the worst ever.  The good news is that I got to take my vacation.  The bad news is that I didn’t get to go to Pittsburgh because my car is a piece of crap.  Saturday I took my car to get it looked at and to see if they could fix it so I could go to Pittsburgh a day or two late.  But there is so much wrong with my car that I have spent the past week trying to get it fixed.  I spent $300 getting new front brakes and rotors.  Then I spent $56 getting new used tires put on my car.  When I picked up my car after getting the tires on I noticed it was driving funny and made a weird noise.  I need new half shafts and CV joints on the front.  Which will cost me about $700-800 that I don’t have.  Now I can buy the parts for about $300 but I don’t know anyone who is willing to put them on for me.  So I have no vehicle.  I have no way to get to work on Sunday when my vacation ends.  I feel like I am going to have to quit my job.  Then what can I do??  I want to go get a new car, but I have no money saved for a down payment or to pay tax and title and whatever other fees.  I have no idea what I am going to do.  I’m just at my wits ends.

Today is my birthday and it hasn’t been very good.  I went to the grocery store for my mom and watched the kids for awhile so she could go clean out the pool.  Then I went to the pool to try and work on my tan.  I talked to Michael on the phone and he pissed me off because he was going to come down and take me out for my birthday but he backed out because he has no job again.  I don’t know what happened.  He passed the drug test and background check and started his orientationthe past 2 weeks then they tell him they are sorry but they don’t have any positions available.  So he doesn’t want to spend money for gas to come down here and take me out.  So here I am sitting at home on my birthday doing nothing but wanting to drive my effin car off a bridge.  Mom even refused to buy me an ice cream cake this year.  That’s the only thing I wanted for my birthday a stupid ice cream cake.  I received one gift…and that was a nice book about the Pittsburgh Penguins from my wonderful sweet friend Chris whom I met on OD and have never met in real life.  My own family doesn’t care, my stupid boyfriend doesn’t care, and I don’t really care about anything anymore.  I don’t know what I am going to do.  I just really hate life right now.