Analysis

“Loving knowing you are going to get hurt, is like living knowing you are going to die. But not loving so you don’t get hurt is like killing yourself before you live.”

This quote was given to me by a friend, and I have to come to realize how fitting it is to me. I painted this quote on my wall to remind me not to give up loving for the fear of getting hurt. I have come to see that this is the reason why I chase after unattainable men, because I know I can’t have them I know I can’t get hurt by them. It is also the reason why I have pushed away every guy that has come into my life that did love me. I am so afraid of getting hurt that I don’t want to get close to anyone. Everyone I love is always taken from me, and I don’t want to experience that pain anymore. “There is no part of the body, that when broken, hurts as badly as the heart.” I know this from experience. I have had my heart broken only twice in my life. Once by Steve(until I realized that he was right) and once by Jess when she stopped letting me see her daughter Zoe. How badly I miss Zoe. She was my whole life. Almost like a daughter to me, but I didn’t have any right to love her, so that’s my own fault. It’s tough when a broken heart comes from faults of your own.

So I will love again and I will quit pushing people away from me. And I will tell those I love that they are loved by me, because, “The essential sadness is to go through life without loving, but it is almost as equally as sad to go through life without ever telling those you love that you love them.”