Life Revisted

I wish that I would have done things differently. I wish that I hadn’t said goodbye. I wish I could go back and change it all. I just wanted it to be over with. Looking back everything that I had thought was wrong. I thought life was supposed to be better than that. Life is supposed to be full of excitement and adventure, or so I thought.

What I wouldn’t give to go back to that time when I was happy and I had it all. At the time it didn’t seem that way. I thought my life was missing something. Boy was I totally wrong on that one. My life is missing something. It’s missing everything that I left behind. My family, my whole life. How could I have been so stupid? Why did I leave the only family that I have ever known, the only family to ever love me?

When you’re young you think that your family is wrong. That life will be better when you are out on your own away from them. Nope, that’s not how it works. I talked to Momma today and I realized how much I am missing, how much I gave up.

If I could go back and change one moment in life, I would change my decision to leave my family and small town for big city life. It’s not anything at all what I thought it would be. I’m happy here for the most part, but I know I would be happier back home. But I threw it all away for my own selfish reasons and I can’t go back. I must live with the choices I have made.

Someone should invent a time machine.