Gaining more self confidence

I am very proud of myself right now. I realized that I have alot more confidence in myself, and I don’t need Jess around to bring it out. Usually when I am out by myself I have no self confidence and I am shy around everyone. Well tonight that all changed.

I woke up around 1 in the morning and I was starving considering that I hadworked a 16 hour shift and came home and went straight to sleep without any lunch. I decided to go to King’s even though Lisa wasn’t working. I hate going out to eat by myself cause I feel like such a loser. But I was hungry and I am lazy and refused to cook for myself.

I sat down at a table and ordered my food when these two guys walked in. I recognized one of the guys. He comes into my work alot. His name is MIke, and I have talked to him a few times before. I said hi to him and his friend Dave, and asked them if they wanted to join me, which is so unlike me. Before I would’ve just looked down and not said a word.

I am so glad that I asked them, cause they were both really nice. We sat there for 2 hours and talked and joked around. It was fun. Mike kept messin with the waitress, and she ended up sitting and talking with us to, since we were the only customers. Her name is Rochelle and she was such a great person, considering she had to put up with Mike’s antics.

I feel so good right now. Usually I am shy and quiet around people I don’t know too well. I am crazy and outgoing around friends, but around strangers I am a wallflower. I have been alot more social recently. Going up to people and introducing myself and such. I have never been like that. Recently though I’ve had such a better view of myself, that I don’t care what other people think. I am holding my head up high and just letting go of any inhibitions I might have.

I thought I needed Jess to bring out the confidence in me. I guess I was wrong. With her I would do or say anything. I didn’t care what people thought. I always had her to back me up. I could talk to anyone. She brought out the best in me. But now I have found my courage. Whoo hoo hopefully I will continue to be more social and meet more people. I’m tired of sitting home with nothing to do. I’m finally on the path to becoming a social butterfly. Who knows maybe I now have to courage and self confidence to find Mr.Right and not be afraid to talk to him.