Music and it’s effect’s on my soul

For the life of me I can’t figure out why music makes me so emotional. Maybe it’s because of my passion for music and life and the connection between the two.

I have such a hard time expressing myself, but through a simple song my innermost feelings are expressed. I shouldn’t let something as stupid as a song get to me but it does.

Right now I am listening to a Country song.(yeah I listen to country sometimes, I listen to every type of music). This song made me cry. Its called “Austin” by Blake Shelton.

The basics of the song is girl leaves guy and a year later calls him and get’s his answering machine, and at the end of his message he says “P.S. If this is Austin I still love you.” Girl is shocked and calls him back and leaves her number, Guy calls girl and she answers the phone, “If your calling ’bout my heart it’s still yours, I should’ve listened to it a little more, then it wouldn’t have taken me so long to know where I belong.”

I was driving down the road listening to the song and during the last part I tried to sing along but I was so choked up, I just starting ballin my eyes out.

What is it about me that I am so hung up on the past. It’s been almost two years since Ryan and I stopped dating, and recently I have been thinking about him more and more. I still love him. I know I do. In the song the girl gets her guy back. Unfortunatly for me it’s too late for that to happen, I think.

Okay bad thought just entered my head. Maybe I should call Ryan??? I don’t know if I can.