Wild weekend

I was so not myself this weekend. I did things that I didn’t think I would actually do. Friday morning I was late to work. Damn Mikey didn’t call me to make sure I was up. So Friday started off kinda bad but it got better.

This guy comes into work and I waited on him. He was looking at me kinda wierd but I didn’t think anything of it until he said.”Bye Jenn”, which was wierd cause my nametag says XBUBBLESX and I had never seen this guy before. I was like, “Do I know you?” And he said yeah. I swear I could not figure out who he was. He said his name was Tom and he left. So I sat there at work and racked my brains trying to figure where I knew him from.

I figured it out as soon as I got online after work and a message popped up from a guy who I had been talking to for over a year but hadn’t talked to in 3 months. It’s a long story why I never met him even though I wanted to cause there were alot of complications. He thought that I was someone else, because he started talking to me on my undercover screen name. And I couldn’t tell him the truth cause it would have blown my cover. So he actually didn’t care that I had lied to him and he liked me.

So Friday night I went out with Jess. She had a lingere party at her parent’s house and it was fun. Then we went out with Jenny, Tank, and Aunt Diane to Denny’s. It was the best time Jess and I had together in a long time. It was like the old days. We haven’t hung out like that in months. Things are well on their way back to normal. Thank god for that.

Went to work Saturday and it sucked big time. I only had 119 customers, which is really really slow. I am really starting to hate construction.

Sunday night I went out with Tom. It was our first date well kinda. But since I have been talking to him for over a year it wasn’t akward or anything it was fun.

But tonight was messed up. We went out to Walmart cause I had to get a birthday card for my nephew Donnie. Then against my better judgement we went back to his house. I knew what would happen if I went to his house. We ended up having sex. I didn’t want to at first only because of everything that has happened in the past few months, but he drives me insane. I have never in my life experienced anything like that. Not even with Ryan. I want to go back for more.

I know that I shouldn’t have had sex with Tom. I don’t know why I did it, other than the fact that my hormones overloaded my brain. I know better, and yet I didn’t care. It’s not like I love him or anything. It was just sex, but it didn’t seem meaningless, cause I have never felt like that in my life. What is wrong with me????