sox box

I am living out of boxes right now and I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!! Which in turn kinda makes me sad….maybe even a little depressed…not so much about all the shitty brown boxes…but more because of the fact that living out of boxes never bothered me before….shit, I did it for years…moving from one place to the other about every 4 months… Rambling…taking life as it came…moving with the wind……..although now that I think about it I really never had much….not even a lot of clothes….a few pairs of jeans and a bag full of  old t- shirts…a Yamaha acoustic guitar….some books….a radio….my grandmas elephant…………………………………….and now thinking of that depresses me…not because I never had much……because I had not idea what I was missing…and it was bliss….

Now I wake up in the mourning and cant find my favorite brand of socks and it ruins my breakfast….what the hell has happened to me….I used to be hard, adventurous and free spirited….now just typing those words exhausts me…………….FUCK!!!

another year older…..

but its cool…. I am done raging against it….and in truth I like all this stuff….my socks are comfortable and the seem doesn’t bother my toes….I have a kick ass F150 and a 4 bedroom house on 3.5 acres with a pond and a pole barn…..and a 60W fender all tube amplifier , a Gibson SG…a Gibson humming bird….a full breed wiemaranier with AKC papers…..his name is Ty by the way (after the greatest baseball player ever)….he is dark blue …. he is always happy to see me……I wonder why I have never wrote about him before…..he is more interesting than most of this shit….

But for now, me and all that wonderful wonderful stuff are sitting packed away….waiting for this closing….waiting for these keys…..all locked up and held back….just like I used to be…..waiting……..

what did I used to do?….me and my friends played video games….but I gave all mine away and vowed never to buy them again!!…….I played the guitar…but I can only do that when no one else is home…..seems like someone is always home around here…..I could read……if someone would write a book that wasn’t about teenage glittery fucking vampires!…….shit!….what else did I do!??

I should smoke some weed and watch some Coen brothers movies……

yep…