‘But These Bees In My Breath/ Have to Come Out’

Ohhhh, wow. So there are things happening here. Gardens and such. Marriage fighting. Sex life arguments. We got a dog friend after a careful three months of mourning. For example. _{<It’s weird how consistent my life actually is, through this particular lens of time>}

‘Well
Sever the ties’

But more importantly?

‘Cut me out’

r/JUSTNOMIL is a subreddit that exists _{<and people with childhood torture like mine congregate in>} and I haven’t felt something so cathartic since this site came back. All of these other monster mothers. I hate reddit so fucking much, but GODDAMN if there aren’t tiny pockets of euphoria bright as suns.

‘Forgive me
For I am not acting myself
But these bees in my breath have to come out
Well you give me no reason to doubt your word
But I still somehow
Still have my reasons’

I am probably in rotation to unload more Mother Things soon. But IDK when I’ll have the fortitude for that. _{<I am remarkably diminished over the years>}

‘I’m sorry
I don’t mean to scare you at all
I’m just trying to drain all this bad blood
All this bad blood
All my bad
Blood’
-Bear’s Den