Still Looking Back

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17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? I think overall I’m happier. I’m starting to learn how to control the hurt I feel from so much that has happened over the past few years. I have a circle of friends that are always here to support me, and I feel like my world is slowly stabilizing.

ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter, honestly. This feeling was added to while I was working at Juicee’s. I doubt I’ll ever be happy with how I look, the way my mom goes on about how much I need to lose weight.

iii. richer or poorer? Poorer money-wise, though Chip always helps me in that department. My soul is richer though. Friendship and love makes a person rich.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

I wish I had studied more and gone to class more often. I threw away my studies this year, and it’s kicking me at the moment.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Procrastination. Definitely.

20. How will you be spending the Winter Solstice?

A lot of family-oriented things, I guess. Plus lots of being with friends. People are wonderful.

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?

In retrospect, no, I never did. I fell in need for love. I wanted to be loved, so I thought I loved. But I didn’t, and that’s okay. I’m still young.

23. How many one-night stands?
I wouldn’t call them one night stands, I think. Or maybe they were? I lost track. Though I’m always willing to hang out with those people and whatever again…
Don’t start thinking that about me. It was mutual. I think. I’m being young and exploring my options and liking life as a single married-to-a-gay-guy girl.

24. What was your favorite TV program?

Judging Amy

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

I don’t hate anyone.. it takes far too much effort. I have no good feelings towards some people, and they should know who they are. I don’t hang out with some people because of general discourse… but that’s fine.

26. What was the best book you read?

I read a lot of books this year… some for school, some not. I’m not really sure what I would rate as the best. I can’t even remember all the books I read, for that matter.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

The wonders of “Rent”, “Urinetown”, and “Hairspray”. Yes. I’m a showtunes freak. Deal.

28. What did you want and get?

I got to see Rent on Broadway with Chip and I got a new, fantastic car that is my partner in crime.

29. What was your favorite film of this year?

The Return of the King and Pirates of the Carribean. I’m a big LOTR fan, because I read the books when I was a kid.. and I am a big Tolkien fan in general. I’ve studied him and read many of his other books, before the movies were even talked about in the first place.

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I don’t even really remember what I did. I’m pretty sure that some point during the day was devoted to State Officer duties at some banquet or other. I turned 19, which was a letdown, because I’m just waiting for 21.

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I would be more satisfied if I hadn’t slacked as much as I did scholastically and got more things done that I had hoped to.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
Did I have a fashion concept? Life revolves around black for techie wear. Anything else was chosen for me by Chip, which means I went pretty preppy. Garb rocks. I love my leather corset. I’m making more garb, now that I’m actually attending events again.

33. What kept you sane?
I was never sane in the first place. Ask anyone. People realize I’m crazy just by talking to me once on the phone or meeting me somewhere one night. But my friends helped me from being a bad sort of insane. Yes, this year has been all about friends.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
No one, really.

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Thanks to being so close to Chip, I’m big on the gay/lesbian marriage deal.

36. Who did you miss?
I miss a lot of people.. I miss my friends from Pennsic that I can’t see often. I miss Mimi. I miss Courtney, who lives down in Florida so I rarely see her. I miss my online friends that I have drifted apart from.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
I have to pick a best? Let’s just list! Vicol, Petreko, Albatross, Karl, Kate, Ciaran, Kalum, Mic, Auntie PJ, BamBam, Tigg, Tir, Julian, Emma, Ailis, Alex, Namir, wyn, Atronach, Judas, Portia, Bethany, Isabeau, Eloi, El, Jake. okay.. list is getting long. All the friends I made this year are the best.

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003:

-I don’t need love to be happy
-Being me, as wild and weird as I am, is what my friends like about me. So why change.
-No one is worth being angry at forever.
-Life is short… live it to the fullest.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
“‘Cause the world keeps spinning
‘Round and ’round
And my heart’s keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til I heard the drums
Then I found my way”