Aftermath

All day today I’ve been having these random bouts of dizziness and sickness. I feel like my stomach wants to turn itself inside out, but then it goes away like nothing happened. I passed out in the hallway a bit back.

It makes me wonder what on earth is wrong with me today. I know that I didn’t do anything too awful last night in my raging mood. I would remember taking pills or any nonsense like that.

No, I won’t get into last night. I deleted that entry for a reason. It made little sense today when I read it, and was pretty pointless.

Anyways… I’m pretty upset with Chip today, because I’ve been bending over backwards to help him get to Pennsic this year, and I feel sort of like he’s throwing it in my face. He was supposed to wake up early this morning, I was going to bring him whereever because he has this odd idea that we both should get tested for AIDS. Then he was going to come over and work on his garb for Pennsic.

But no.. instead, he slept until 2pm and now is far too busy working on some stupid computer.

So screw it. I’ll give him the fabric he cut and I’ll give him his patterns and leave him to it. I’m already tired of trying to make his life easier.

If he doesn’t have enough garb by Pennsic, then I’ll just leave him behind. I don’t care anymore.

Where’s Michael when I need someone to babble at… He’s great to talk to.. takes my mind off of all the stupid shit I think about.

Where’s anyone, for crying out loud. I feel like I’m the only person around today.

Oh well… I’m going to go sleep or something.