06/09/2012

I feel kinda weird to say that there is another girl that I kinda have my eye on. I’ve never really had an issue like this, and now that Amanda and I kinda have been seeing Amanda, I feel that I shouldn’t be this confused by the matter. The truth is this girl has no Idea that I even kinda like her. She Goes to the Gym, and something about her just glows. I sent her a friend request on FB and of course she accepted it. ( she has like 400 friends lol ) She comments a few times on my statuses, and she likes a few things. I know that means NOTHING. However, it just kinda makes me feel better about the situation. She seems like someone who would be WAY out of my league, but I guess I am trying to think like a positive person for a change. Never know if you don’t try. Yet I don’t really want to because this whole Amanda thing. She texted me all Friday night because she wanted me to come over. She was telling me how much she wanted me to come have quesadillas and margaritas. I really wanted to, but I had to work. She didn’t really take it well and kind of put me down because I was at work. She played the " you still are married to your work" card like she used to. I always feel down when she does those kinda condisending comments to me. I just wish I knew what I was supposed to do.

It’s late Saturday, Sunday morning. I just got off work and decided to type something up. I had my second session with my new theripist yesterday. I feel a little better about him. We started out talking about what made me happy in life. Then we started talking about my childhood. the hour flew by really. And this time he didn’t really put me down this time.

Well I gotta be up in 3 hours for Sunday workout. Just wanted to get a few things off my chest.