05/10/2012

I haven’t slept now in two days. Depression has just been a killer in my life anymore.
I tried to not contact amanda at all today, yet around 10:20pm I called her. We talked for almost two hours, We talked about how we don’t know if this past weekend was a good idea. I of course tried to tell her how special it was. She basically told me it was just sex… She knows there were feelings, but she also didn’t want them to come rushing back in like they did. It’s all my fault that I let this happen. I should have just took things slow. I should have just went and seen her for lunch, or dinner. Then went home.

I’m just not feeling this right now. maybe tomorrow