04/25/2012

Well after today I kinda wanna just go to bed. Amanda is being short with me… AGAIN. how can you go from flirting, and wanting me to come over, to being distant and cold shouldered? I don’t understand how people think it is a good thing to treat someone they care about this way. She wants to see other guys then fine! They will all treat her like shit, because the kind of guys she attracts now a days is douche bag city guys. I HATE seeing her throw her life away with those type of people. I texted her today and told her about how I lost 82 pounds so far! and all I got back was: "congrats" I just want her to tell me how much she loves me, and misses me again. Hearing her say she loved me the other night on the phone was so relaxing. I just think it was a moment of weakness, and now she is tightening her grip on her self again. there, that is all I am going to say about her.. Sorry.

I worked out pretty hard today, and my legs are paying for it. I can’t help but think about how far I have came with all this weight loss. 82 lbs!!!! that is like an entire 10 year old haha.

Feeling really lonely again tonight, I wish she was here.