04/05/2012

New Picture, Thought i would share a new view of me. Can you tell the difference that 69 lbs can make?

I’ve been working very hard still on this weight loss thing. I really have enjoyed it, and it certainly has helped cleaning my head out. Every time i leave this apartment to go run, or go to the gym, I kind of smile to begin with. I thank someone out there for giving me the strength and the motivation i needed to keep my head above water. Now there is possibly a few people i can thank for keeping me motivated. The main thing is that i am FINALLY doing this. 

I had a dream the other day that i found someone. She held my hand, and it made everything in my life better… how weird is that? obveously there is more to it, but mainly that is what i remember.

Work Has still been hard on me. my boss still has been mean to me with the whole hour cut thing. He is nice to my face which i have to say is nice. However, I know deep down he hates me… Megan has been gone all week and I’m telling you this has been amazing. little to no Drama about stupid things. No notes hidden in my box.   Wonderful i might add…..

Even though i am losing weight i still have periods in time where i’m lonely and wonder if Amanda will sometime like how much weight i have lost. And that deep down she is one of the people who motivate me to work out. Every time I’m at the gym and I think I cannot do something. I mutter her name and something inside of me kicks into 5th gear and I get it done. I really hope someday she loves how much I have worked on this for her and for myself.

Miss all of you. Still don’t like writing public all that much.