Nothing More To Say

hell, i think i’ve wrote everything i possibly could today. not being physically with roger gave me all day to sit around the house and do nothing at all…except write and watch tv. it’s 12:32 in the morning on monday….and i wanted to post the email i sent roger about 10 hours ago….here it is :

Baby,

        You just got off the net and I knew this would be the hardest part of this separation, not being able to talk to you on the phone at night!! Everything feels against me right now. I know you know this, but my body aches and I can’t quit thinking about you. I hope you at least thought about me throughout the day today! I truly pathetic though let me tell you…I was watching TV and it wasn’t even something that reminded me of you, and I started crying!! That’s really sad on my part. It’s like you’re my guilty pleasure, I have to have you! *lol* It’s is now 9:41pm and I’m feeling sick to my stomach. I know you’re getting tired of me emailing you, but sweetie if I can’t actually talk to you and hear your voice, email is the next best thing for me. So if you get tired of my emails just let me know and I’ll quit. I love you with all my heart!!

                                                               Your Little Sunflower

Sweetdreams and Good night…. have a great day at work and remember if you get the urge to call me, don’t fight it. 🙂  Go with it and do it. *lol*

All I want him to know is that I love him and no matter what I always will. I want him to know that he has hurt me, but I know it is not on purpose. He is doing what he needs to do for himself. I’m okay….