!! Something Stupid to Cry About !!

So where I live, there is a bookstore called Red House Books. It has new and used books….I’m talking about thousands of books. If you were claustrophobic you would not be able to go in there. It’s like a little book maze, every corner, every dead end, every shelf….packed with books.

Well, I’ve wanted to go there for the past week and a half, but I hate going by myself. I’ve asked Roger to go and we never have. It really pisses me off cuz he never wants to go anywhere with me. I wanted to go to PetSmart yesterday, but did he…NO!! But yet, today his Granny and him go where…? Red House Books!!!! When I asked him where all they went and he said that place among many others, I just said I’ll see you at 2:30….he said okay and I said bye. That really pissed me off. He doesn’t want to go anywhere with me except fucking Sonic or WalMart and Hannah’s, but her house doesn’t count. When his Granny pops up and asks to go somewhere he’s all over the idea!

She’s all the time giving him money, or at least trying to cuz he says he doesn’t take it all the time. Just for the hell of it she bought Roger a set of tools. Why? He doesn’t have a tool box anymore….Why? It got stolen off his back porch…Why? He lives in the damn ghetto and he left it on the back porch….Why? He forgot to bring it in, although I know he shouldn’t have to bring it in off his porch.

She just makes me ill. She just recently bought his brother a  "piece"  of a truck. I don’t think it has the bed on it, just the cab. It’s old and ugly and she asked his mother if it was okay and she said NO and she did it anyways. So now it is just sitting in their back yard. Yes, maybe he is about to be 15 i think….but come on!!

It just makes me so mad becuz honest to God, sometimes, to me, it looks like she’s trying to give them everything to make them happy….to almost be like  "hey I have money and I’ll get you what you want" !! This is going to sound very mean, but it kinda seems like she’s buying their love. Pretty sure when Roger reads this he’ll have something to say, but this is my diary, I just allow him to read it. I know she loves them. I know they love her, but money isn’t everything and it just seems like it is to her.

Now, it doesn’t seem like this all the time. I like his Granny. I really do, she’s nice and funny and there for them…but sometimes, I just don’t agree with what she does for them.

Crazy how all this came out of me just becuz of Roger going with her to Red House Books!