UP UP UP

I WANT TO SAY THAT I FEEL UP!!!!!

I WANT TO FEEL UP!

I HAVE NO PAIN.

I HAVE FOOD.

I HAVE TVS.

WHAT MORE CAN I WANT?

I AM FIGHTING TO BE UP. THAT’S WHY I TITLED THE ENTRY UP!!!

THE TRUTH IS THAT I’M DOWN. I FEEL SO ALONE. I FEEL THAT NOONE CARES. I KNOW THAT’S NOT TRUE.

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF.

I DON’T KNOW IF I WANT TO DO ANYTHING.

I’M HOME.

I HAVE NO PLANS FOR TOMORROW.

I AM STRUGGLING TO DECIDE IF I SHOULD CALL ANYONE.

WHY DOESN’T ANYONE CALL ME?

WHY DON’T I CALL ANYONE?

I FEEL THAT I WOULD BE BEGGING PEOPLE TO SPEND TIME WITH ME.

ON THE OTHER HAND WHY WOULD ANYONE WANT TO BE WITH ME IF I’M GROUCHY. I DON’T THINK I ACT GROUCHY WHEN I’M WITH PEOPLE.

ANYHOW I LOVE TO COME HERE AND COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT’S MY BIG PROBLEM!@!!!!! I’M NEGATIVE.

SUPPERTIME.

Sago

Well, you put it on this page of your prose box and hopefully it relieved your misery…it can sometimes. I live alone…it means I have to be my own MAMA, so I am. I ask myself what I’d like to eat and I prepare it, what I’d like to read and I read it…ditto…it truly helps to be our own MAMAs and do what mothers do to make life interesting for their children, but do it for ourselves. Just an idea I thought I’d share.

Jodie

you are not negitive you are just going threw some stuff that you need to figure out why and you will. I have also been going threw stuff and I have almost figured it out…..