Travis

Well, this is a big topic for me….

Travis: It all started when i was 6 years old and i moved to Virginia, to live with my dad, step mom, and sister. I came here in the middle of second grade. (In second grade i went to like 8 different schools) Well, Travis was the first person to talk to me. He’s exact words were “Hey girl, i like your boots” Not exactly love at first sight. But, he became my first friend in VA. So, in not to many words, we beat each other up all the time. We ended up doing all the lil kiddy stuff together. (Buddy field day, dances, picnics) Our families became friends. My step mom watched his sisters kids and we were just all friends. Well, in fourth grade we went on a lil date with my parents to the movie theater. We saw Mrs. Doughtfire. I still remember that night. After we went to the new Walmart supper center that just opened. Me and Travis got along great. We were like brother and sister. Well, we stayed friends all threw high school till, he moved to Prince George(Disputanta). We still talked. More like he liked to aggratate me. Well, we talked every once in a while, but we kinda had different interest. Well, in October he got in to a fight at school. He told me about it, but nothing to worry about. Later that week his ribs kept hurting. He went to a doctor and they found blood in his urine. So, they ran some tests and found out that he had a kidney disease and he would eventually die from it. And he needed a transplant. Well, my step mom went up to see him and told me that i needed to go up there and see him. Well, i have this thing about hospitals, churches, and funerals. So, i didnt want to go. Well, she told me i needed to. So, the next day i went with her. As soon as i saw Travis i felt my heart in my throat. Laying in a hospital bed was someone i grew up with dying. At first i couldn’t even move. So, he told me to come give him a hug. He was so skinny, so frail, so yellow. I was scared. But as soon as i huged him i knew i had to be there for him. We ended up staying friends and he got to come out of the hospital for a while. His sister had a party for him and i ended up meeting a friend of his there. We ended up going out for like a month. But, i knew my heart was with Travis. He was over here almost everyday. We would just hang out, talk, laugh, and most of the time cry. But, we became closer in alot of ways.

I just felt like we had alot of the same things in common. Well, i used to go over his house all the time. One night we just got to talking about our friendship. And we held each other for the longest time crying and just being scared to be without each other. We just leaned back and looked into each others eyes. And for the first time we kissed. Not even knowing what we were doing. It felt so perfect. Like, we were one person. There was so much in our eyes and hearts. It felt so perfect. Well, we came a lil more then friends. We didnt tell everyone to begin with because we didnt know how far we wanted to take it. Well, after about 2 weeks, we told our parents. They seemed okay with it. Well, me and Travis were stuck together for the next two years. Alot happend. He got a kidney transplant, i stayed at the hospital everyday. I was there when he went in and i was the first to see him when he came out. I cryed all day till i was able to see him again. He said he heard me in the room when he got out of surgrey. He heard me tell him that i loved him and he need to get better because we had so much to do. Well, everything went good with the surgery. He stayed in the hospital for a month and then was able to go home. All was great. He had the best attitude about life. He cared about everything. He had a second chance. Well, it didnt last long. He got a real bad temper. I thought it was just all the meds he was on. so i excepted it. Because i feel in love with the person i knew before. Well, things just got worse. He was rude, mean, and just not some one you didn’t want to be around. Well, i gave up alot for him, because i thougt he needed me. I gave up my family’s respect and love. I moved out of my house in with Travis in April of 2000. We lived in Prince George. I went to school all day till 2:00, then i went to work at 2:30 till 6:00. Travis didnt work or go to school so i have no idea what he did all day. But, he picked me up from work and when i go home i cooked dinner at like 7:30. By that time i was dead tired. Sometimes, i did side jobs for extra money. Cause i payed for all the cars he had and everything we had. He never kept a job. So, i worried about everything. I got further and further away from my family and friends. I thought i was only brought in to this world to take care of Travis. Yes, the love that i was getting in return was gone, but i never gave up. I just hoped he would come back to me. It never happend. We moved to Amelia after i graduated in June. Benjamin, his friend moved with us. I realized that Travis was making more and more unhappy. I would get sick all the time. I would cry myself to sleep. I was so scared, i pushed all the people i loved so far away i felt like i had nothing. I thought the only person i had was Travis. So, i dealt with it. Till i couldnt stand it anymore. Two years and many sleep less nights later, i finally left Travis.

Sometimes, i still think about him. Sometimes i even miss him. But, i dont regret breaking up with him. It felt better in my heart. Since then im trying to get back with my family. I cut all ties with Travis. Hopefully life will be easier.