Robert’s First Time Out/Throwing away Nuntz
2:19pm
Boy, oh boy. Things are happening this year. I hope they are POSITIVE change and not doom!! Robert is 21 months old, now and he is very obstinant, and does not listen when I say no or stop. In talking with a nurse at work I realized that I should start implementing the Time Out (chair in the corner!) At first I thought he may be to young to learn, but he is NOT TOO YOUNG!! He KNOWS!! And now, today, he knows what a Time Out is all about.
I really didn’t have a corner to sit him in, so I brought in his little plastic Mickey Mouse chair and stuck it in the corner of the bookcase and the bathroom door. It’s the most borning corner I could think of. Since he kept throwing things off the kitchen table (after being told NO!) I put him in the corner and BOY was he upset!! Big, huge crocodile tears and loud crying !! He arched his back up off the chair and I just replaced his tushy b back into the chair!! He cried for a minute or two and I explained why he was sitting in the corner. Hopefully, he’ll start listening when Mama or Dada say No!
The second thing he did today is throw his yellow drumstick at my head!! I jumped up and it was Time Out time again! He’s getting it!
He’s sleeping now.
I really need to do something about the nursing. I am planning to take away daytime nursing, like, NOW. I need him to get off the boob, not get MORE attached to it!! In the past week, I’ve noticed him telling me when my right breast is empty and when he wants to switch sides! YIKES!! Too mature to be hanging on the boob. So I plan to go to night time only, and then NO MORE. I’d like to be done with it before he turns two, we shall see. I don’t know how long the weaning process will take. I dread it, tho, I’ll tell ya that much!!
Oh, I called it Throwing out the Nuntz cuz I am thawing 2 bottles of Expressed Breastmilk to throw away. He’s so over bottles of EBM that I was silly keeping them in the fridge to begin with!!
Robert is growing every day – I mean getting better at stuff. Like, he’s practicing his colors now and will hold up different crayons and he’ll tell me what color he thinks it is. I think he got purple right, and maybe green. But he’s practicing. He can’t even SAY the words well, but he’s getting better at what he is saying daily as well!! He’s also practicing words like crazy. He’s even back into his Your Baby Can Read movies and reading cards. We’ll see if that turns out any results!
Roy and I are not getting along so well right now. I have the crunch of Children’s Take Over about to happen at work (still all questions are unanswered, basically – and no contract has officially been signed yet.) Roy’s still unemployed and saying stuff about not being ready for a potential customer’s car. I get SO MAD when he says he doesn’t have the space cleared properly, etc. I hope he gets it together soon, and makes the necessary changes so he can get to work. He also insists on having someone to watch the baby, as he needs more time in his shop. Although his income is not consistant, and is not even really there, so he can’t REALLY insist on me getting someone to watch the baby. I do need a break myself from time to time, to get stuff done, or just to help Roy. Robert’s inconsistant naps make it hard. Although it is due to a nap now that I am journalling.
I think I said really mean things to Roy over the past week to hurt him and make him feel insecure about our relationship (stuff like I’m gonna leave him and get my own apartment, etc. ) Stuff I don’t REALLY mean deepdown inside, but stuff I can’t stop myself from saying when I’m THAT pissed. And Dylan and Robert haver heard some of it. *sigh* I wish I were perfect. Or even better.
Roy’s got a guy here to help him right now – kind of for free at the moment. The guy, James is also unemployed and is very interested in Roy’s plans of doing up a car, and selling a car, as there is no shortage of car projects here, just no money!! So we’ll see if Roy has finally found someone he may be able to count on and really get back to the place where he feels that he is on track (and not behind like he is constantly saying and feeling).
OK, better use some of Roberts nap time to get other stuff done.
Nice journalling!
ps. Rex got married on Saturday and I saw Kimmy for the first time since all her flaking episodes. She was actually a bit stand-offish with me at first!! ( I guess I can’t blame her when she probably didn’t know how I would respond to her!!) When she saw I was being nice, she warmed up and seemed back to normal by the end of our visit to Roy’s Mom’s. It sucks having her be so flaky and unreliable. But at least I’m used to it now, and realize it’s a part of who she is to me, and I don’t get to pick my family, As Roy Says!!