started with FB and Robert’s progress @ 11 months

OK.  Now I’m awake.  I wish I could read what I’ve already journaled about previously, but I cannot scan thru OpenDiary while at work cuz the website is "blocked." (For our own good, I’m sure!!) 

Things I wanted to add to last night’s entry:
 
Breastfeeding an 11 month old:  Breastfeeding has gone surprisingly well for Robert and me.  My milk supply never did pick up as I thought it would.  I always get the same amount when I pump at work.  3 oz out of the right breast and 1.5-2 oz out of the left one.  (every 4 hours)  If I’m lucky – or haven’t breastfed Robert too near to me leaving for work, then I may get a little more out of each one.  Like this morning, for instance, I got 4 oz out of each side.  That’s nice, cuz I’ll be able to take the extra 2 oz and make almost a whole feeding for him  (he really is satisfied after taking a 3 oz bottle!!)  I took some shots of me breastfeeding him, too, as I know our time together is limited.  I will try to post pics as I have a chance (??)  I have been realizing that as his birthday approaches that I need to start thinking about weaning.  Penina (a Jewish woman I meet with occassionally to have a playdate with Robert) told me that her baby no longer breastfeeds at night.  That may be where I start.  Robert really does need to start sleeping in his own bed and be able to sleep thru the night.  So far he never really has.  If I put him in his crib at night – he needs to be sound asleep.  Then he only stays there until he wakes up, which is sometimes the instant I lie him down, and sometimes between 20 min. and 2 hours later.  That’s about it.  Then he cries hysterically until I come to get him.  After that he sleeps in my bed after nursing and may nurse a couple more times that night.  He is actually starting to take over my side of the bed completely!!  He is getting so big!  He loves to sprawl out, flip over, roll around, get sideways, or upside-down.  Roy says he gets sideways cuz he wants to feel Roy at one end and me at the other.  that’s pretty cute, but I’ll tell ya what.  I’m getting a jacked-up back, shoulder, etc.  from sleeping all weird with him.  But still I don’t really mind too much.  I just keep getting feedback from my Pediatrician, and my Mom, etc, saying if I don’t get him sleeping in his own bed SOON, it will just get harder and harder to ever get him out of ours!!  I wish we could sleep together forever (in a sense!!) but I think our time is coming to an end.  I think I’d like to see him sleep the night in his crib before he turns 1.  I feel SO BAD taking the boobie away from him at night, but the Doctor keeps reminding me that he does not need to eat at night.  And as long as he is nursing at night, he will never sleep in his crib (cuz I fall asleep while nursing him!)  Oi Vey, it may be a hard road ahead.  Will I make him Cry It Out??  I don’t see any other way.  Will I be able to stand to hear him cry for long??  NO WAY!!  I already know I can’t really handle that.  I don’t know what I’m gonna do.  I guess it’s gonna be a long night/or couple of nights when we finally decide to do this thing.  *sigh*
 
OK. here’s something I don’t think I’ve mentioned before.  I have registered on Facebook and have hooked up with a bunch of Hebrew Day Schoolers from my past!!  I couldn’t believe it!! Rivkah, Eileen, Doug, Patrick, Zachary – they’re all my friends on FB now!!  Even Rabbi Schwartz from when I was in Kindergarden!!  He’s on there!!  It must have been 25 years since I’ve had any contact with him!  What a TRIP it’s been "seeing" people I went to elementary school with.  And the way FB is set up, when you log in, you are asked what you are doing right now.  If you choose to post what you are doing or thinking, then your friends can see that information when they log in.  Other people I’ve run into on FB: Leslie (my X-BF from before I was 12 yrs old), Elayna (was 1 grade ahead of me), Eric (also 1 grade ahead), and Nancy (who may have been 1 or 2 years behind me in school), Aaron (huge crush in H.S.), Mark (X-b/f from H.S.), among others.  SO WEIRD.  I can actually see what they were doing or thinking earlier when I log in!!  How bizarre is that to see their thoughts from earlier that day when I log in!!  It just really makes me realize how far we’ve come technologically, and how much more we can DO!  I’ve reconnected with people I never thought I’d connect with ever again!!  I love it!  There’s also a family connection on there.  I have 13 family members who are linked to me on FB so far.  I’m sure more will be coming. 
So to compare myself with X-Hebrew Day Schoolers is pretty interesting.  I was part of such a small class when I started school.  I figured everyone would have been married with kids in their 20’s.  It turns out Rivkah just had her first baby after I had Robert!!  She’s also in CA!!  (but up North)  Doug is an anesthesiologist!!  WOW!  Leslie is in Real Estate (ugh!) and is also a Life Coach. Zak is now living in Czech Republic and I still don’t know why!  Patrick is married (and his wife is now my "friend" on FB).  He has a couple kids and is with his H.S. sweetheart still!!  I finally saw pics of him – and he does not look as I had envisioned him at ALL!!  He’s no longer a blonde, and has brown hair and a brown beard.  He looks like he’s not in very good shape.  His sister, Carrie, is connected to me too, and I was so surprised to see how heavy she is!!  (especially, cuz she was a very cute little princess as a kid!!)
How many X-boyfriends am I connected to on FB?  Well, Mark, Tim, Andrew, Mychael…  I think that’s it.  Really weird. I never thought I’d see or communicate with Mark EVER EVER again.  He doesn’t communicate with me, and only answered my question with one word (when I asked him if he was in Indiana he just said "yes"), but did accept me as a friend.  WEIRD.  Someone told me FB was addicting and they were right!!
 
Dylan:  he’s on spring break now.  He is failing 2 classes (already and the trimester just started a few weeks ago) and has a D in Science.)  I made a deal with him a while ago that if he doesn’t get any Fs or Ds on his report card I would send him to skate camp this summer.  I’m not too worried he’s gonna take me up on it as he is progressing now.  However, that being said, he is doing a bunch of makeup work during spring break and may be getting his grades up again.  I am so tired trying to keep him caught up.  I THOUGHT his mom may send him to H.S. in her neighborhood thereby releasing me from my daily chore of checking up on his status.  Then we could go back to just having him on the weekends and that would be a lot less driving and stress for us.  That is not what’s happening.  Krissy decided that he is already too much to handle and that he needs to be watched after school.  Probably a smart choice on her part.  Lots less work for her, anyway.  Major stress for me.  But if he does graduate and make it to H.S. I may ease up on my following up on his schoolwork.  It may be up to him to get thru H.S. and pass his classes.  I mean it is up to him now, but I have a BIG hand in trying to keep him on track.  Skating is still the only thing on Dylan’s mind day and night, and he worries that H.S. will give him MORE work and he will have LESS time for skating.  He still has hopes of becoming a pro-skater.  I did explain to him that I do not encourage skating for Robert (or for him for that matter) because as a parent I worry about their safety.  I don’t think Child VS. Cement is a good plan.  I’d rather get Robert involved in T-Ball or Soccer, or other activities.  We shall see what he decides he wants to do (probably skate) *sigh*
Otherwise, he is getting along famously with Robert and they enjoy eachother’s company immensely.  He does pretty well when he is watching Robert.  Which is good, because, with our tenants gone, we need to fix up the upper house and it’s nice to have Robert watched. 

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