What could it be?

My memory seems to be fading away…

I awake, almost every morning feeling like I should see something

But my mind chooses not to 

All that passes though this head of mine 

Are bright lights

So white

So blurry

What does that mean?

Am I missing something?

It feels like my brain is rewinding a tape

And nothing seems to play

So heavenly

And beautiful

A disguise to something much darker

It has yet to come